THINGS I AM TRYING NOT TO THINK ABOUT

(things I cannot stop thinking about)

-all of the lies I have told and forgotten

-am I a good kisser?

-the tied up bodies in my neighbours basement

-am I pretty? am I skinny? does this measure my worth?

-climbing trees

-the world ending; when will the oceans swallow the planet whole?

-him

-black magic

-the certainty of death on a rainy afternoon

-porridge

-is there a place for me in this world? or do I just exist?

-setting things on fire

-will I still write poetry once I am dead?

-am I already dead?

-running away

-will I ever be able to see myself the way others see me?

-why do I care so much?

-throwing up

-cake frosting

-the voices I hear as I am falling asleep